broken pieces of me…

Cranberries’ song anyone?

Strange title, yeah? Well I had a strange dream last night/this morning. Get it? …Cranberries… Dream?

Or rather… the dream itself wasn’t THAT strange… but how it changed was odd/amusing.

So I was running through some woods naked, zipping between trees and over moss adorned boulders. I didn’t notice that I had changed until I caught sight of my large fur-covered clawed hand grabbing the trunk of a small tree out of the corner of my eye as I used the tree to swing myself into a different direction. I was travelling towards something purposefully and aggressively. Territorial rage was bubbling up inside me as I spotted my adversary.

Then the dream became more of a 3rd person observational perspective and I watched as the two werewolves grapple and tear at each other with claws and jaws. “I” killed the other werewolf successfully (dream switched back to 1st person perspective at this point) and was about to howl in triumph, but then I heard something.

Men talking… and gulls.

The voices were familiar and, as I started to stalk closer, I could hear the ocean lapping against the shore. That calming sound of waves rushing up over large stones and rocks and then retreating just as quickly, pulling some of the stones with them.

At this point I noticed that I was no longer a werewolf, and no longer naked. I was wearing my long earthy brown skirt and some dark tank top. The trees were thinning out as I got closer to where I could hear the guys… but I stepped out onto the large pale gray-white stones and couldn’t see anyone.

Then from behind me I could hear Frank talking about singing with John. I turned around quickly and saw Frank, John, Mike and Norm, but I get the feeling there may have been others too. We walked on the stones on the beach, and I walked right along the edge where the water was washing up over stones so that it just tickled the bottoms of my feet. Mike was talking to me about swimming for a little bit. They all started talking about singing and Game and I started to participate in the conversation as we came to the end of the stoney part of the beach.

Sand stretched for the rest of the way, and instead of a forest on the land-side there was a cliff-face. At the base of the cliff a bunch of fold-out chairs were set up and by the legs of the chairs were small yellow plastic mushrooms stuck in the sand as if someone were trying to make them look real. Norm came over and looked at them and said they looked like Smurf-sized mushrooms. I laughed & woke up.

And that’s when I heard the gulls outside the window.

Darn things changed my dream!

It was interesting how it changed though… the first half was lush and verdant in colour (with deep red blood when the fight happened) but wild and violent in nature/emotion, but the second half was cool and cold in colour (barely having any but the blue from the ocean and what we were wearing and then the bright yellow of the ‘mushrooms’) and calm and serene in nature/emotion as we walked along.

If anyone goes looking for an interpretation of the things in my dream… these are some of the things I found on an online dream definitions site (I’m not including stuff after I heard the gulls in the dream ’cause that wasn’t a natural progression, I was affected by outside sources… stupid loud gulls outside my window! And I’ve only included the snippets relating to how these things were in MY dream):

  • Woods
    To see the woods in your dream, represent life, fertility, rejuvenation, and spring. Alternatively, the woods symbolize the unknown and the unconscious. You need to open yourself up to discovering your potential and your instinctual nature.
    To dream that you are walking through the woods, signify your return to an aspect of yourself that is innocent and spiritual. If you are walking out of the woods, then the dream may be a literal depiction of being “out of the woods” or being in the clear of some situation.
  • Zoomorphism
    To dream that you are changing into the form of an animal, indicates that you are becoming less civilized, less restrained and becoming more free and instinctive. You may be expressing your newfound freedom/independence and experiencing a lack of boundaries. Alternatively, taking the form of an animal, suggests that your primal desires and/or repressed sexual urges are coming to the surface and needing to be satisfied. Consider also the animal that your turn into.
  • Werewolf
    To see a werewolf in your dream, indicates that something in your life is not what it seems. It is symbolic of fear, repressed anger, and uncontrollable violence.
    To dream that you are a werewolf, suggests that some aspects of your personality are hurtful and even dangerous to your own well-being. You are headed down an undesirable path. Alternatively, a werewolf refers to your repressed instincts.
  • Murder
    To dream that you have committed a murder, indicates that you are putting an end to an old habit and a former way of thinking. This could also refer to an end to an addiction. Alternatively, the dream indicates that you have some repressed aggression or rage at yourself or at someone. Note also that dreams of murder occur frequently during periods of depression.
  • Killing
    To dream that you kill someone, indicates that you are on the verge of losing your temper and self-control. Consider the person you have killed and ask yourself if you feel any rage towards him or her in your waking life. Your dream may be expressing some hidden anger. Alternatively, you may be trying to kill an aspect of yourself that is represented by the person killed. Identify the characteristics of this person and ask yourself which of these qualities you are trying to put an end to.

As a side-note: It must look like my little velvet heart is beating while I walk ’cause it bounces on its little metal hoop attached to my purse. I thought of that this morning as I was walking to work.

=^..^= Bean =^..^=

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